newdom

O'Connor:

Finding your place in the world may be something of a mystery, dream or fantasy but the signs of taking some radical measures are present. In one way or another you are determined to enter into new territory.

Metro:

This is the beginning of an amazing time of change and excitement. Uranus, the planet of magnetic attraction—a regular quick-change artist—also enters your sector of buddies, teammates and freedom. Somehow, you are going to be at the forefront of an important dream.

I feel like I am at a serious point of change.
I feel the need to settle down, grow some roots and establish something. All this constant re-starting is getting tiring. Thoughts of school (creative director or chiropractor) are tickling my brain. I need to go to Africa sometime in my life but I really don't know if now is the time. I'm tired of moving so fast. I will just wait it out a bit longer, if it feels right then off I go.
I feel caught and pulled between the 3 (or more) lives I want to live all at once. Perhaps part of the curse of being a Gemini is easily getting bored and constantly changing my mind/not being able to make decisions. I want to live the simple beautiful kootenay life, I want to live the professional fun city life, and I want to live the backpacker free life. At the same time I don't want anything, I want to hibernate for a long time.

Big Things

Great!

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Oohhh

Some big changes are looming which stand to catapult you into brand new territory.

But something new and special and possibly big, is brewing.

I had a dream last night I was up the road behind Dad's house with 2 other people and we ran into a Bear and Cub. The Cub ran away but then the Mama started coming towards us. The Bear turned into a Lion, an amazing golden lion with very fierce eyes. It started toward us and we backed up. It was looking hopeless, we thought we would surely be attacked. Then I started honking the horn on my little bicycle and we all started jumping and yelling (but my voice was sore). She turned around and we escaped.

The 2nd part of my dream took place in Japan at an old temple with a friend who resembled Aya. I was joining a community and one of the rules was that people higher rank than you would throw large rocks at you (your head, back etc.). I was angry at how violent this was.

What could this mean?
Perhaps struggle? New challenges?

Tokyo~these streets will make you feel brand new, these lights will inspire you

Jet Lag..

Standing at the forefront of new beginnings and the unknown.

do-don-pa!

I had the most incredible last party in Tokyo. Tokyo tower view, rainbow bridge view, odiaba ferris wheel view, day to night party and a birthday cake on the dance floor. Perfect. 楽しかったよ！

Today I woke up at 6:30am and went to Fuijikyuu Highland. We waited in line for 5 hours for a rollercoaster that went from 0 to 178km/h in 1.8 seconds. It was madness. Then we waited for 2 more hours for a water ride. I was so tired, hungry and grumpy near the end. We only fit in 2 rides before the park closed. Argh damn you Japan! It was fun though.. and Fuji was beautiful. On the train home there was a jumper and Chuoo line was delayed. Very Japan-y 2nd last day.

Goodbyes are so hard. I hate it.
I am blessed with such amazing friends here. Honestly, I am so grateful. They are wonderful and I love them with my whole heart.

Sunshine & Dango

The weather in Tokyo is absolutely marvelous lately! Sunny everyday, plus 20, up to Wednesday.
Today I mailed my two parcels to Canada, 14000 yen-clothes and shoes. I have a shopping problem. It was amusing carrying the massive boxes to the post office.

I met Nobu & Ryota in Asakusa today for lunch. We explored the temple, prayed, ate & went to the oldest amusement park in Japan. It was slightly erie but really cool at the same time. We rode the "space shot" and the oldest (and maybe shortest) rollercoaster in Japan. I had so much fun, I miss hanging out with just boys! In Canada I almost always just hung out with boys but in Japan I don't spend so much time with more than one boy at a time and I forgot how much fun it is and how comfortable I feel around boys.

I bought a new 500GB hard drive because my mac is full. It cost around 9000 yen and tomorrow Nobu is going to install it for me.

I am really enjoying my final beautiful days in Japan, although very busy and sad.
I can't believe I am leaving.
It feels like I've been away from Canada much longer than 1 year. I am worried I won't be happy back in Canada..

The home situation is about to get even more uncomfortable. Mao's friend is coming to stay from the 1st to 4th (my last day). Which means 4 people in a very very small house made for 1 person. Probably means I won't be getting very good sleeps *sigh* しょうがない。。しょうがない。

I've been sleeping before 1am and waking up around 8:30am doing yoga every morning followed by beautiful fruit salads. I love it. I feel good and the day feels so much longer and more productive. I love sunshine (^_^)

おつかれ!

I finished packing! My bags meet weight restrictions (so far..) and I'll send 2 parcels home (costing me about $150).
Funny thing is, now that I'm packed I am second guessing my choice of clothes to send and ones to pack with me to Van. But the box is already taped up & I'm too exhausted to open it so I'll just deal.

Finally!
Next step: Cleaning my room & throwing away the things I can't take (2 plants & 5 pairs of shoes, how sad).

I'm getting nervous for Canada..... I'm worried I won't fit in there, even in Vancouver. I've become so accustomed to Tokyo big city high fashion life.

It's summer in Tokyo finally!! Sunny days above 20 C! Mmmm!

Now is the hour to bloom

Full Moon no doubt. My emotions are all over the place. Mainly stress but feeling a lot of anger, sadness, joy and lotsa stress. In honor of the full moon I am trying Brooke's Moon tea.
Money is just soaring away from me right now. I can't make enough time in the day for all the people I need to see & things I need to do. Golden week means everything is closed, which means I have one day (because tomorrow is a holiday) to do my parcels, mobile account and everything. I very much dislike my living situation right now. It is adding more stress I don't need. I just wanna move on..
But Everything will get better and come together. I trust that.

Last night I dreamt I was back in Vancouver. It was so real. But in the dream I was only visiting Vancouver for a month and then returning to Japan.... true? Only time will tell.

Mika offered to take me to the airport! How marvelous! She has been and is such an amazing friend （*＾＾）＾*） ☆Chu！！

Attachment & Detachment

I had an incredible visit to Kumano. Wayne and Takako were so great to me! They drove me around the area and really treated me well. I am grateful! I had a very spiritual experience in Kumano, the energy is very strong there. I would have loved more time there, I felt like I left right when I really started healing. I had very vivid & intense dreams and a series of strange experiences.
I feel wholesome.
I am eating well, feeling balanced and I have not had any alcohol for 10 days.

Gemma's music is all I can listen to recently. http://www.gemmaluna.com/music.html
"There's always so much to be done", tell me about it! I leave Tokyo in 9 days and there is so much more to be done. Today I am going to tackle my closet..... look at this mass..... oh goddess.. wish me luck.


I made Yuko a dread this weekend! We also discovered an amazing organic restaurant in Shimokitazawa that is actually cheap! I am really really going to miss eating out. It is so cheap in Japan to eat out (and no tips!).




I was looking forward to going to Canada but now I am not excited at all. It will be nice to see my family and friends but I don't feel excited. I love Japan. I feel so sad to leave.

Photos from the 7th reconstruction party this weekend

Tadaima Tokyo

Something about sunshine and summer tastes like freedom. It's contagious.

I love the new spring fashion! All flowers and Lace. Nobu and I went shopping in Sapporo (shopping with boys is surprisingly fun) and I finally got caught up with spring fashion. A white boho top, flower dress, brown coy-girl style boots and a light rose dress with lace ruffles on the bottom. Pictures will follow.

Hokkaido was so much fun!! It felt a lot like Canada, a mix of outside Vancouver and castlegar/okanagan. AMAZING FOOD... Oh my god..... sugoioishii!!!

はらはら

I had a very nice weekend ♥♡♥
Good Food, exploring, lovely people, shopping (I bought a new Canon IXY Digtal is Camera and oh oh ohhh love!), sakura and love.

I am so blessed, I can't thank the universe enough.

We went to Asakusa


Yoyogi Koen


The little park 5 minutes from my house is so gorgeous with Sakura right now. How lucky am I?



My wallet seems to hate me recently.. it is retaliating by spitting out every bill I put in.

I'm going to Hokkaido this weekend! I hope it's not cold.... hah.

I can't deal with this prolonged winter anymore. It feels like winter has been here forever.. like never ending.
I NEED SUN!
I NEED SUMMER!
For my mental & physical health.. please, bring summer asap.
Thank you.
Love: Amber

Blue Moon

I don't know if it's the moon, the weather or my thoughts but I'm having trouble sleeping lately. Boo.

Every Japanese that has come to my room has used the same word to describe it: "Simple". This really surprises me every time. I certainly do not think it is simple, there are photos all over the walls, plants, fabrics, decorations and a chair in it. When I heard this for about the 4th time I told my German friend who made it clear to me why they thought it was "simple". In Japan there is no storage space in Apartments, so everyone has boxes or storage in their room in view. I don't have so much stuff & in Germany + Canada we like to keep that stuff out of sight. So I shove it under my bed, in Shumi's closet etc. Now it makes sense why my room is simple. .

Today is 19 Degrees!! Finally a break from cold & rain!
I'm oh so looking forward to hanami this weekend, Sat & Sun!

かわいいおばちゃん

This weekend I went to a raw food restaurant with Sayaka, Akira & Mika. Delicious Sakura Raw Dessert <3 Mmm!

Sunday I went to Meguro river for Cherry Blossom viewing & Jazz+Wine by the river. Afterwards we went to Roppongi for an art exhibit featuring photography. Definitely inspiring & really made me marvel at the complexity & simplicity of Nature. Then we watched Avatar. It was a beautiful movie and I enjoyed it but I was expecting more. It almost reminded me of Jurrasic Park meets Pocahontas. But I've decided I will be Neytiri for halloween next year! I already have the hair, stretched ear, accessories and clothes.. or lack there of.

My startup disk is full so I can't upload any photos (which is really sad because I have some beautiful ones from the weekend!).

Today I walked to a little river near my home that has beautiful Sakura right now (I run under them everyday, lucky!). While I was taking photos a cute obachan came up to me and {in Japanese, again I am proud I can understand everything she said!} told me this was a good picture, beautiful with the sakura & train. Then she asked me which country I am from, how tall I am and said beautiul, I have very long legs. It was cute, she kept talking to me and hanging around. Also at Meguro Kawa sunday 2 Obachans walked by me and said "Wow! Long legs!" I turned around and laughed and they were shocked saying "She can understand Japanese!! Sorry, excuse me.. but your legs are so long!" I smiled and told them I understand, it's ok and thank you. They said "Beautiful, I like! I like!". So cute Obachans. Haha but I swear if I had 100yen every time someone said "Long Legs" or "Small Face" to me since coming to Japan I would be rich.

Oh My Goddess

Timing!

hah.

I'm in the flow but I wish the flow would make my decisions for me, you know how Gemini's hate big decisions..

This weeks horoscope

Spring is here and you are in the mood to have more fun with friends new and old. With your energy levels running high you will make your moves soon. Communications and invitations will begin to flow like the spring melt. You are at some form of foundational level so concentrate. Increasing your scope and exposure to new people and ideas will open new doors and inspire you to realize dreams.

Yes Mr.O'Connor!